I was recently asked what event/person/thing has been a “change agent” or “game changer” in my life… and with that I immediately answered being a mom..a titled I thought I was not called for.
You all know that I am a proud mom to my toddler son, but what you didn’t know is that not so long I never imagined being called someone’s mother. I was never the type to admire ones kids, I might’ve been that same person giving you dirty looks if you brought your kids to one of my favorite restaurants. Its not that I detested them, I just didn’t have that motherly yearning…until I got pregnant.
My husband and I have been together for about 11 years and of course, the conversation of kids did come up early in our relationship, but it quickly diverted when a crying baby would interrupt our alone time at dinner or just the mere thought of raising a little person simply scared the bejesus out of me. Having someone look up to you for advice and guidance was my worst fear. What the hell did I know? my dinner usually consisted of a beer and a cookie…My friends thought I was cold-hearted or just didn’t care when I never reacted to wanting kids, but in reality I cared way too much to have to put someone through my unhealthy eating habits and lack of parenting skills.
So, what had changed?
To quote Oprah, I had an A-HA moment. My hubby and I had finally tied the knot (after 8 years of dating) and the moment after saying our wedding vows, the feeling of anxiety just washed away, I had now felt complete and wanted to add to our circle. Little did I know that this moment would then change our lives forever.
Getting pregnant did not happen overnight for us, it was a task that consisted of gynocological appointments, ovulation predictions, charting basel temperature and popping vitamin supplements. After going through monthly negative pregnancy test, I realized then that being a mom didn’t scare me anymore. So, after a year of doctors telling us that we were both physically fine, we finally got pregnant.
When the news of my pregnancy got to my friends and family, they couldn’t believe it, well neither did I…how did this once free spirited bird decide to take on the challenge of motherhood??!!
The test of my motherly instincts soon kicked in the moment I finally laid eyes on my son, it was pure love….wanting to be the best mom I can be was all that I could think of. Yes, there will be some bumps in this unknown world of. But I’m ready. Excited.
What game changers have inspired you? A parent? A teacher? A philanthropist or celebrity?
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